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You might be dating an asshole if…
Does anyone else just occasionally revel in feeling hate?
It’s a weird emotion. Like how could something so negative and awful feel so good at the same time?
I occasionally get trapped in cyclical thoughts around events, memories, and people that inspire hate. The hateful feeling strikes a match and gets some adrenaline flowing through my aching, oft sedentary body. I think that’s why I like it.
Today I was thinking about how much I love and adore my husband. I wanted to write some gooey piece about my love for him. While I was thinking about him, I realized how much shit I had to shovel in order to justify keeping him.
Yeah, you read that right. I sadly had clung onto a lot of self-sabotaging behaviors for years. Being able to overcome those urges in order to realize I’m in such a great place with him and need to STAY THE FUCK THERE was also a huge blessing.
